Project: Lucid Dreams

Letters to the Unknown

2012-01-08T18:28:00.000-08:00

Last night, I didn't sleep very much. But it's a good 12 hours or so after I woke up for my day, and I realize that the thoughts of my dreams are still somehow lingering in my mind. Dreams are usually supposed to disappear after a good, say, half an hour or so once you wake up; but since I've started this project, is it any different that I recite my dreams to me?

Last night, before I went to bed, I spent the day writing letters. That's what I do whenever I'm upset, angry, sad, or just in the mood. I write usually to my brother, Allen, who is watching over me and my every move. In the letter, I mentioned that I have not "felt" his presence lately, his or my mother's. I asked if it were selfish of me to ask to see them again, and I guess my dreams answered that. But, did I just dream of them because my mindset was on them already, or was it an actual "sign?"

Although I can't recollect most of what happened in the dream, I do remember walking with my mother in a dark valley. She seemed to look a little upset. Allen, on the other hand, we were driving around and he seemed happy. What do I take from this? Is one person proud and the other isn't, or was timing just bad?

Cranked Up, Jacked Out

2011-03-28T22:41:00.000-07:00

My head is spinning.

Here's an update, I met the family. Well, just his sisters but they like me, and I'm hoping that's a good sign for meeting the parents.

I've been so tired lately, working through what seems to be glue. My mind is alert, running on a constant "Things to Do" list but the motivation is what I'm lacking and needing oh so desperately. My sleep schedule is so messed up, and to think this is only part of what's killing me. I'm about to go to sleep, but they're starting again.

The parts of the day when I'm tired, but I'm not THAT tired. I start to hear people who aren't really there, and see things that aren't even possible. My lack of sleep is so terrifying sometimes, it's not making my health any better at all.

Falling Apart.

2011-03-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

Lately, I've been tired; really tired. I start dreaming when I'm awake, like I was driving back to Huntsville today. My mind floats and while still focusing on the road, I start to wonder. I thought about my future today, while driving, you know, between the swerving around cars and dead animals in front of me.

As I was waiting for R to get home from work, I fell asleep on the couch. It's a fuzzy memory, but I dreamed about meeting his family, again. He went home after I saw him, and his family is still asking about me. I don't know how I feel about this. I know this isn't exactly a blog about a dream, but it's a rant that branches off of it.

The Dream:
We were driving, me and some friends, down to the beach. Somehow, we ended up on the Islands down South, nice beach, clean water; just relaxing. I jumped into the water and we swam all the way out to where I barely touched the floor, then the waves started pushing me farther away from my friends and I knew swimming against the current would be pointless, so I floated away. I started swimming across the current, which is what you're supposed to do! Well, I got onto the beach eventually and there were people around, and I realized that I was so far from where I was supposed to be. So, tired from my drift, I laid down and just relaxed in the sand. In the distance, I saw a girl staring at me, and calling her mother over. Then they were both pointing at me, whispering to each other, and another girl and a father came to them. Confused, I got up and looked at them awkwardly, and was about to make my way back to my friends when they approached me. The first girl, C, asked me; "Hey, aren't your R's girlfriend?" I was so confused as to who these people were, because I've never met them before. But in the back of my mind, I had a feeling that they were his family. It was, then I woke up confused.

Reality?
I'm so afraid of meeting the family. I'm shy, nervous, and am a very quiet, observant person. He is the same, in a way, but with his family it's different. I don't understand why I'm so nervous to meet them. Part of the reason why it was so hard for me to leave my ex was because I loved his family so much, and they accepted me. What if R's family doesn't like me? I'm not like them, no, I don't mean the race. I meant as in we grew up in two different worlds. I don't want to say that they're rich and snobby, because I haven't met them, and that's my boyfriend's family. He's such a perfect guy, and I don't want to be cheesy or anything on my blog. They live in such a high class kind of life-style; I don't know what that's like, I don't know how to act around them. I know, be myself, but what if being myself isn't good enough for them? I'm just scared, they'll hate me. I'm falling apart because of such a small thing.

Returning Dreams

2011-03-04T14:12:00.001-08:00

It's happening again, and I don't know why.

I was good for a good while, for almost a whole year. I know what they are, and I'm not as afraid of them as I used to be. Things for me have been stressful lately, then again, why make these excuses for it. I'll record them as I remember them, I guess.

In my living room, I remember I was about to study with Ashley. Although we decided to take a small "eye-resting" period. I fell asleep, and nothing bad happened. This is where it began, my body went stiff, and I couldn't figure a way out of it until Ashley had to shake me awake. From my view, I saw her standing over me with a giant shadow behind her, and to her, she said I looked like my eyes were half open.

Just now, I fell asleep on the couch at my boyfriend's house. I locked our puppy in the bathroom, and I took a nap on the couch. I dreamed that he came home, and I had no idea. The lights were off, all but the bathroom where Bandit was. He was holding me, somehow got by me without waking me up. I looked up and asked,
"When did you get home?"
"A little while ago, did you pass out?"
"I have no idea what happened. I'm still so confused."
This was the scariest part yet, because he looked into my eyes, and he started turning into that shadow figure. His eyes were red and his voice deep.
"This could be that you're tired, or a seriously bad joke that the devil wants to start playing with you. Isn't that right Cathy?"
I tried to move, I felt it. My body locked up, my neck especially. He threw me up in the air and I was spinning as the shadow overlooked my body, just laughing maniacally. In the dream, I began to pray.
At this point I knew I was sleeping, and tried everything to wake myself up. My body jolted and I woke up right before my phone did.

Hard to Breathe

2010-10-13T11:40:00.000-07:00

It's getting harder for me to see, what I really want in life, and where I want to be. Things are following me, or so that's how it seems. Darkness clouds over me like a shadow it's lurking in my mind, feeding off my deepest fears.

I keep having dreams, none of those hallucinations. They scare me, but not in the sense that a demon or some sort is haunting me. It's me, my own self, creating fear within my life. I know it's nothing but a dream, but I can't seem to shake it. Although I won't admit it to the entire public, I feel like I'm having internal, emotional, broken thoughts about my life. So where do I begin? With a recurring dream.

It's like a storybook, something new happens each time I fall into a deep slumber. I'm not with him, I'm with someone else. I'm happier with someone else, it's not him. In the dream we're happy. The world was different in the dream, I was accepted as who I was. Nobody hated my decision for being without him, because I was happy, smiling, and in love. Again, with someone else. We started as friends, then gradually moved onto being more than friends, and once we were public, the world seemed at peace.

So what now? Where do I even, begin?

Replay ...

2010-08-20T08:37:00.000-07:00

So, you know how you're supposed to dream about what you think/talk about during the day? Well, these past few nights, it's kind of been happening. Most occurrences within my dreams have been like so. I think it's because I'm so focused on myself sleeping, because I'm still not quite used to the apartment, and there are annoying sprinklers outside that hit my window at 3-4 in the morning, EVERY MORNING! In particular, these past few weeks I've been thinking about my relationship, and how much I don't want to be a part of it. I look at the things we've shared before I packed and unpacked them, but I feel nothing. Emptiness, no emotion of loving, liking, or care of any way. I feel bad, because I try to fight these negative emotions away. I'm not trying to pull what he calls a "Dear John" but, it's hard. There's a major lack of communication; we're helpless.

The night before my birthday, his sister & our friends threw me a surprise party. Oddly, even though I knew it was impossible, as I reached for the closet door that I figured everyone was behind, I opened it and expected to see him. I didn't, of course, no surprise there. So I inched to the bathroom and found my friends, and still disappointed to not see him. Thoughts are rushing into my mind faster than the darkness can. In the dream last night, I saw that my friends coming down to Huntsville as they did a few days ago. Kidnapping me, and dragging me into a weird building. There he stood, home 3 weeks early. He hugged me as I back, reluctantly. The dream, he was so happy, but I wasn't. I think about it now, and think about the promise I made his sister make to me. I don't know how to deal with this in real life, but in the dream, he got down to one knee and asked me to marry him. I said yes, but I knew I was settling because I had no confidence of moving on. Unhappily, I took the engagement ring and lived the rest of my life with him.

Unfaithful.

2010-07-24T11:37:00.000-07:00

Last night, the crew was here until about 3:30 in the morning. We stayed up karaoke-ing, watching scary movies, and just being with each other. Time is passing by quickly, lately, things have seems so unexpected, so quick, yet so slow. I'm about to leave, and about to make the biggest decision of my life; even though I already have. On Facebook, just about everyone has changed their "In A Relationship" status to either "Married" or "Engaged." Weird how people so young can make a decision like that, but if you're in love, what else can you come to believe? Too much has been happening, and last night, in my dream, showed a sense of what my thoughts are really trying to tell me.

We were at my house, it was built in a fashion that combined me and my cousin's house in Houston. We were all hanging out in my room, and then I went to the garage with Linh, Vincent, and Binh. We were sitting around in a circle, just talking because the weather was amazing. I was messing with my phone, and then I got a phone call. I picked up, it was him. I gave the phone to his sister, and I walked inside to get drink and there the OTHER he was. He swept me off my feet and kissed me. Reluctantly, I kissed back. And I just held the poor boy in happiness and awe. I got my glass of water and walked back out to the garage, and got the phone back. We talked, about a lot, and he said that he missed me, that he loved me, and that the ring would be on its way. I stepped away and told him over a phone call that I had been missing him, but the feeling was gone. I couldn't any longer stand to wait for him, and that I was sorry. That instead of wanting to, I forced myself to remind myself of what he and I used to be, and that I couldn't wait another month for him to come back. Couldn't bear the thought of him leaving over and over again, so this was it. I hung up, never told our friends, never told his family. Disappeared to college, oddly, I wasn't at SHSU, but at some school up North. A month later, I received a knock on my apartment door. Boy #2 opened the door, we were living together. Man in uniform stood there, rain pouring on him. I walked forward, he handed out something and put it in my hand, then walked away. I looked down, opened the tiny box, and broke down. It was his dogtags, wrapped around a ring.

The phone rang, I woke up. I hate dreams like this, I hate how real they feel, but ultimately, I hate how real they are. My dreams have been bugging me, when really instead of my deepest desires, it's my conscious talking to me.

Explosion!

2010-07-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

Well, all this talk of HEROES lately has probably gotten me thinking about it. Although, last night's dream was weird. We were all together in some sort of warehouse. The usual gang, me, Phuong, Loan (Lucy), Binh, Diana, Veasna, Jenny, Thien, Vincent, etc. Thien and Jerry were talking, and all of a sudden Linh and her Dad walk into the middle of everywhere and drag Thien out. He comes back in, furious, angry, completely red. He was like Ted, from the show. He was burning up, and I looked over at Linh and she gave me the "We Told Him the Truth" look. Everyone backed up, because he was too "Destructive" to be near, and I stepped forward. Everyone screamed and tried to hold me back but I didn't budge. Instead, I walked over to him and started talking, over and over saying the same thing but he wouldn't listen. It was about time for him to blow, but I hugged him. I was burning, but I held on tight and looked up at his eyes. He was crying, I've only seen him cry a couple times; one on a happy occasion, and the other not. I held on tighter and buried my face into his chest. Said "I will always love you" and he grabbed on. He fell to his knees, still holding onto me, and broke down. I backed away, burned, but it didn't hurt, I guess I was like Claire or something. And he was on his knees, I was standing, and he pulled out a ring. Seriously, it came out of nowhere, I swear we were about to explode. He asked me to be with him forever, and hesitantly, I said "No." He just stared at me, heartbroken, and I couldn't move. Someone grabbed me from behind, and dragged me onto the boat outside the warehouse. I stood at the back, holding on the house of the boat, staring at him, in shock. Everyone disappeared, and he was just there. I don't know why I had this dream, what's going on? My mind is jumbled. I don't know how I feel about him anymore.

Wedding Dress

2010-06-28T15:24:00.000-07:00

Are my dreams trying to give me a sign of some sort? Because, the day I dreamt this, he contacted me after he promised that he just wouldn't. Today, he said that he wanted to see me, after the yelled at me for being with Thien, my boyfriend. So, let's just see what the dream had to say, it happened a couple days ago.

Again, it was my wedding day. It took place in the most gorgeous hotel, looked really expensive. We were getting ready, my toes weren't done pretty, they were scratched up like the way it looks now, nail polish after Prom :( I had on this gorgeous dress, somebody was fixing it for me, and to my surprise, it was my mom. The room was full of my bridesmaids and people, but I just stared at her for a while, she smiled at me. The biggest smile I've seen, or can remember seeing. She turned around, and began to walk out, as it was my turn to walk down the aisle. I walked up to the alter and slipped my arm into his, he looked so cute. Finally fully shaven, Thien was standing there, my knight in shining tuxedo. I know Vincent was standing as his best man, I can't remember who my Maid of Honor was, I don't seem to remember that, ever. Anyway, the Priest kept talking and I just stared up and out the window, it was a bright and sunny day. I was so excited, I was so, happy. When he finally said, "You may kiss the bride," Thien turned to me, mouthed "I love you" and was about to kiss me. The piano started playing, and it was "Wedding Dress" by Taeyang ... but boy was playing it. Boy as in my ex, boy as in he was the same kid from the dream titled "Wedding Bells." Now, for those of you who don't know, this song was written by the "Best Friend" of the bride, ultimately saying that she should've been with him. At that moment, my heart broke a little, as the song continued to play and he rose up from the chair walking towards me. He got inbetween me and Thien and grabbed my hands. He got down to one knee, pulled out a ring, and looked into my eyes for an answer. I looked at Thien, and he had a worried look on his face, and searched for an answer from somebody in the crowd. I looked at my mom's face, and she just looked at me with confused eyes. I remember that I blacked out and my mom ran up to me and caught me, and I woke up over-looking the ocean, like the one in AJ Rafael's "When We Say." This song talks about how even though you're in love, you break up with one another. It's weird how these songs come into my life like this, and I just asked my mom what I should do. She asked me, who do you love, who do you trust, who do you want to be with, ultimately. I couldn't answer her, and I began to cry. She got up and told me to think about it deeply, before my next action. She told me she would return when I've made that decision, that she wasn't disappointed in any pick unless it makes me unhappy in the end. Now my point of view says a lot, I'm sitting here now, and I'm firmly planted on Thien. Does that change the fact that my heart skips a beat or stops when I get a text from boy? He makes no sense, and I want nothing to do with him, it's the past that is keeping me from giving my all to Thien, someone I'm willing to wait for as long as he's with the Marines.

[cDo]

Power of Naps!

2010-06-08T15:02:00.000-07:00

Power naps are great, they last 10-15 minutes only though. It's not long, but it's enough time for your mind to fully rest and for your dream to begin. Did you know that in all reality, you can only truly remember the last 10 minutes or so of your dream? If even, at all, that is. That's why I enjoy my power naps ... I guess it doesn't help I've had a total of 5 hours of sleep for the past like, 2-3 days. School is already kicking my butt, I had a major breakdown last night too. As for my nap today, I fell asleep while dog conveniently stayed quiet.

We were sitting on stairs, kind of like the ones in the beginning of the Harry Potter movie where he sneaks up to see the room with Voldermort in it ... I am such a nerd. But we started out there, then for some reason we ended up going to Huntsville. We were in the bed of a truck, and I saw Carson's parents. They were waving and driving away, while we just watched them. The bed of the truck turned into a boat ... and we were on the land by the trees; not quite in the water yet. Then some guys come up into the docks with their boat that looked like a truck with tons of stuff in it. I wondered who they were, and it turned out to be Carson, Cliff, and that cute kid from class (LOL). We were talking, it was me, Ashley Chen, and some other girl I can't remember right now. But we were asking who was staying in Huntsville ... and it turns our Cliff was! Amazed, of course, we were excited to let him on his way to unpack and whatnot. While the three of us girls were on the boat ... with Carson and Boy. We were talking and I turn to Ashley and she's in a green bathing suit asking to jump into the lake. I said that'd be fine, because I didn't care. I swung across to the other side of the boat and then Ashley goes, "I don't have a bathing suit ... sorry!" She looks soaking wet and she's wearing MY tank top and shorts -____- Confused ... I was quiet and then water came up and splashed us in our faces ... it was gross! I looked down and we were on the gulf on the ocean ... so somehow the lakeside turned into the beach pier. Boy then jumped down onto my side of the boat, and he turned from cute boy in class to actual BOY I dreamt of the other time, and hugged me. Then he grabbed me and jumped into the lake. As we surfaced, we kissed, and I woke up as happy as ever. Not to mention puppy started to whine and run around in circles ... but is this a sign from my unconscious wants?

[cDo]

Wedding Bells and Freddy Krueger

2010-06-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

Oh, the puppy is constantly whining at night, for that I thank my brother. Although, I managed to get some amount of sleep last night, and I had two of the weirdest dreams.

Dream 1
I was driving down I-45 towards Houston, and we pulled off into Huntsville for some reason. I was making the usual turn onto 11th street and then for some reason, it turned into Montgomery and there was a bridge that was ONE WAY because of construction. Well, we drove into it and now we weren't in my car, we were driving across the overpass on a motorcycle. When we arrived at the front of the Motel 8, we were in a van. Apparently, I was a ghost hunter? I asked, "Why couldn't we stay at the nice hotel down the road?" And we were experts at our jobs so we were hired here. Confused, I walked into the motel which looked fairly nice and that's when we got our assignments. I, of course, was sent into the worst room, the basement/garage. I think I had a little sister, she, I, and my mother, were going into there. We're psychic, apparently. Which is weird, because of my Deja Vuu incidents lately. Anyway, we inspected the area, everything seemed okay. My mom was on the bunk bed, my little sister on the bean bag next to me, and I'm on the floor, how typical. Then the lights dimmed, and he walked into the room. I was never afraid of Freddy growing up, I hated Michael Myers though. Anyway, he came into the room and put my mom and sister into a shock. They couldn't move, and I felt paralyzed as well. He walked straight up to me, picked me up, and threw me across the room into a darker corner. I struggled to get up and hit him, but I couldn't. I looked back at my mom and my sister had vanished, and I was scared. He put me up against the wall and raised his claws. I was thinking to myself, he isn't really a ghost ... and started going through it logically. Weird, because he was confused as to what I was coming from. Oh well. He let me go, and when he did, he vanished, taking my mother away from me and with him.

Dream 2
We were in some sort of old movie theater, the old fashioned ones. I was in a dress, and we walked outside of Bac Dao's house and the street was packed. I got into a car to go to the cinema and when I walked in I was confused. Apparently, it was my wedding day. Rita was my main bridesmaid, I'm not sure who my maid of honor was. But I had like, a long line of bridesmaids, like Amanda, Amy, Tiffany, so on and so on. I felt dumb, there was no rehearsal I attended so I was lost. I didn't feel as pretty as the other girls, and I walked in at the wrong times. I sat in the library and cried, until someone came up to me and told me that it was time. I walked up stairs and confused as I was, the bridesmaids just jet off somewhere. We were now in a room, full of old time looking things. Full of my childhood memories, somewhere I'd like to be again, actually. I looked over, and saw my groom. He was, Thien. I hesitated for a moment and walked over to him. He gave me a big hug and kissed me on the cheek. I burrowed myself into his arms, and when I pulled away, it was someone else. Someone who's name will not be mentioned, and it was weird. I held on tighter and was more happy, or so I thought. Next thing I know, we were driving, a giant U-Haul van behind us. We were happily married, moving into our first house, with a baby on its way. We seemed perfectly happy, with this so-called mystery man of mine.

Is this some sort of sign? Is my unconscious mind trying to tell me something? Or am I interpreting it in a wrong way? Do I feel as though my mother were unfairly taken away from me, now that I actually know the truth behind her death it haunts me. As for the second dream, what if I am really unhappy with my current relationship. What if it's really the other guy that I want and know I'll be happy with, as opposed to Thien?

[cDo]

First Night

2010-05-30T08:03:00.000-07:00

An update that might make sense a little more ... is that yesterday my family got a puppy. She's an 8-Week Old German Shepherd, adorable, and sometimes already quite annoying. We've got to get her registered and give her shots and all that jazz, so if you've got any suggestions, drop by some comments.

Anyway, before we slept last night, we took her out to potty and dragged her right along back inside. She was so tired, I feel bad for dragging her everywhere with us. We came back into the house and she knocked out almost instantly, and throughout most of the night she stayed quiet. I walked out a few times to check up on her and she would just do this weird little grunting sound, that sounds like Stitch, but I don't know what it means. She's fast asleep when she does it, she's still too young to bark.

So before I was woken up by a loud bang on my wall (thank you Brian, who slammed the bathroom door) and Xi-Xi completely freaking out and the boys doing absolutely NOTHING about it ...

I had no idea where I was. In some sort of old-time hotel, like back in the boats in the river had giant propellers kind of old ... with my puppy. I feel like we were in the swampy area, considering there were alligators. Somebody was trying to steal her, so we were on the run. But being as little as she is, and un-trained for that matter, we were falling behind and he was getting closer. We jumped into a steamboat and hid out in the lowest deck for what seemed to be forever ,and when we came up, we were on the boat docks. Now, she ran around like crazy playing with a butterfly. I sat there and looked around to find my family, fishing. How weird, right? But they were fishing, and there were all kinds of fish swimming underneath the docks. Little minnows, big fish to eat for like, what seemed like a year. The point was, after we caught all the fish, puppy decided to lead us back home. By this point, she was already pretty big, and we were lying in the grass in my backyard. For some reason, I had a giant yard with plenty of grass and in the pool, is where we put the minnows we caught. Then I spent the next few days outside in a hammock with her, and heard a giant splash in the pool. I ran over, and saw Allen swimming in the pool with the minnows, and randomly, two Koi fish. Then my mom was up on the land as I turned around, BBQ-ing and feeding the dog. I was kind of lost, but happy at the same time. I went to sit next to the pool, closer to Allen. He told me to look out, and I was confused. He just kept looking at me and saying look out. I turned to my mom and she was enjoying the presence of our puppy. Then Allen goes, "Cathy, look out!" I turn and he jumps into the pool, giant splash of water. -___-" Even in my dreams he can bother me! He goes look out again, this time with a weird face. I got up and backed up as he tried to run towards me, thinking he was going to push me in, I ran. Although something was in my way, a robber, what seemed like he was, standing behind me. I couldn't find my mom, or the puppy. Then, charging towards me were my brother, mother, and puppy before I heard the gun go off and my life flash before my eyes before I was awoken by the slamming of the door and whining of my puppy.

[cDo]

Paranoia warning?

2010-05-21T08:45:00.000-07:00

I feel like, kind of as though, she's trying to tell me something. Last summer was the first time I've dreamt of her, yes although she's my mother, I don't see her this often in my dreams. Is this something like a warning, or am I just thinking too much about it?

I've been having trouble sleeping lately. My sleeping schedule (not to mention my eating schedule) is whack. I feel exhausted, but once I hit the bed my body is so energetic, but my mind wants to shut down. Pretty soon, I'll be all alone. My paranoia is already getting to me, and with father and brother gone for a good while, who knows what will get to me. Sleep paralysis takes on a whole new meaning after this past year in college. The things I've seen, stories I've heard, oh goodness. Hopefully it is paranoia after all, I don't want to test anything.

Congratulations, well deserved.

2010-05-12T20:54:00.000-07:00

It was my last night in the dorm, and I was a little nervous about everything. The many "What if" thoughts ran through my mind as I drifted into my slumber. It's all done now, but last night I was afraid of something. Maybe the arguments I would be awaiting once I came home, the annoyance of dealing with annoying so-called friends, or that a day came closer to when he leaves. Breaks my heart, but she was there to comfort me, if not literally, but in my dreams. Where my deepest thoughts are expressed and my wants or needs are portrayed, where I realize the difference between the real world reality, and imaginative outcomes. Although, I remember in one of my previous posts I blogged about whether or not dreams were a portal to the other side, in which case, last night proved me right.

Parts of what I can remember ... We were all standing outside in the driveway of Chu Son's house in Rowlett. It was me, Co Thao, Co Mai, Lucy, Phuong, Allen, Brian, Khoi, and Nguyen ... kind of like the old gang. We were all in a circle, talking and chatting it up! We were all our ages now, but we talked like we had back then. The sky was cloudy, and it started to thunder and storm. Mom looked over at me, walked to me, and gave me a hug. We crawled into our tents ... and when I looked out we were at Lake Lavon like back in the day. I shared a small tent with my mom. I remember being cold, and my mom pulling a blanket over the both of us, one of the blankets I grew up with that we got rid of a while ago. We talked, I can't remember about what ... but I do remember this. She told me she was proud of me for finishing my first year of college, for making it this far along in life already, and she was happy to see me with Thien. She made fun of the LGMH post that Fion made, and I woke up thinking I was really insane. Before I "dozed off" in my dream, mom gave me a kiss on the forehead and said she loved me. I "woke up" in the dream and she was gone, I popped out of the tent looking for her, and Allen said that she had left. He walked to me and said that he loved me, and has done all he could for Brian, for now. With a kiss on the forehead he vanished up to the sky. I then woke up to reality, feeling cold and as I pulled my blanket over my head, I smiled.

[cDo]

Insecurity

2010-04-28T13:16:00.000-07:00

I know it's been a while, but I've decided that I should only blog when I'm concerned about my dreams. Something along those lines, and I've been having the same type of dreams lately.

First time it happened, I suppose it's because she texted me and said that she had seen him. They used to date, and I wasn't worried because she's a good friend of mine, and she'd been dating someone else. It's been over a year since they split, I should have nothing to worry about. Then again, with me and him being on bad terms, I guess it slipped my mind. We were all in Virginia, in my cousin's house. I walked into my room that I stayed in, and then we were all of a sudden in a house in Rowlett. KABOOM! I see her on the computer, typing to him on aim. I was confused, because they were sending things like "I love you" and stuff. Then it said "Turn Around." She did, and she saw me, and had the most shocked look on his face ... and all she could say was, "I'm so sorry." I took a step back trying to get away from her, trying to soak it all in and there he was. All he could say was, "This was unexpected ... "

I just woke up from a nap, nothing crucial. Ten minutes can play with your mind, I'll tell you that much. We were all at his house for a family gathering, I was with this guy from my school. A guy that I've been hanging out with a lot lately, which is really weird. Everyone says he likes me (thanks -_-) but I brush it off because I don't take it into any consideration. I'm in a relationship, regardeless of how happy we are. Anyway, me and him were walking around the boyfriend's apartment, and it changed somehow. I saw his dad, we don't talk much, but he said hello and asked how I was doing. He told me everyone was upstairs, and so me and my friend went upstairs into his room. It was a different apartment, because boyfriend mentioned that he was moving, and I guess this fit my description. Anyway, the stairs were swirls and I got dizzy running up the stairs. I sat down outside his room for a while to get my eyes straight, and I heard a bunch of voices. One in particular, was HER voice. I don't know her, I didn't like her though. She's gorgeous, she's everything he wishes that I would be, probably. They were all up on each other, I stood at the door. Everyone just looked at me and brushed it off, because they knew I wasn't his type. She just laughed the "I win" laugh, and he looked at me with the "Oh well" look. I looked down in my hand and had the jar I wanted to give him, and just threw it on the ground. Not knowing how to feel, I ran back outside with the guy I was with and just sat. I couldn't cry, I couldn't find the emotions to say that I loved him too much for this to happen, I couldn't even find anger. I just found confusion.

We've been hitting a lot of bumps lately. Unable to communicate, which is a major problem. That's why I think we're not getting along lately, I've been having my doubts. I've been attacked by other possible candidates, and worst of all, he has come back into my life. I guess it's all a span of confusion, I just need to see him. They say to break up with him, they say that I am too good for him. They say that this anger and confusion isn't worth it. That is something I'll be hitting on my other blog, not for dreams.

[cDo]

Comeback.

2010-04-07T22:47:00.000-07:00

Boy, can I say that it is GREAT to be back. I felt a little lost to be honest with you at first, I needed this blog to retrace what my actions were when I had first started it. Anyway, these upcoming dreams weren't in the last two nights, but they're the ones I've dreamt about in the past few days, they're pretty recurring, and I can't seem to get them off my mind.

It was just the four of us, me, Allen, Brian, and mom. You know, I completely forgot my surroundings for a minute, I forgot Allen and Mom weren't here, and for a moment, I was at peace with myself, and the world. Everything was silent, we were standing in the field that was full of grass and bluebonnets with other wildflowers growing. Like in the pictures we took when we were kids. We went rolling down the hill together, but we weren't old. We were kids, all three of us and my mom was as beautiful as ever. Rolling down the hill, we fell into a pool. It was a tall pool, felt like it was one of those inflated fun jumping houses we used to play in at school carnivals and stuff like that. Allen hugged me, and my memory came back. Not the fact that he was gone or anything, but I was awake in my own dream. It was a luciddream. Something I've been trying to achieve through this the entire time, and in a breaking midst of it all, it happened. My memory was there, I was alive, controlling my actions and whatnot. Then Allen took Brian away and they walked off to some place, and I was left with my mom. I looked at her, and I felt as though her presence were really there, and I hugged her and began to cry. I know for a fact that when your dreams start becoming lucid, you are about to wake up because you're coming to your sense. I woke up with not a wet pillow, but a fear and strength for the day. It was a Monday, business casual.

Dream #2:
Relationships are complicated, and mine, is a long story that is to be unraveled in some sort of crazy way. I believe that we are young, and the word love means nothing unless it's directed towards friends and family, not a significant other. I remember those so-called relationships I had growing up, and there are only a few I can take into consideration for helping me learn and grow: David Nguyen, Jay Bui, Danny Nguyen, and now I guess Thien. Does that seem funny? Most are Nguyen's, haha :) Anyway, the dream consisted all of us. In some sort of building, in a classroom. Basically, I was put up in front of the four, told to pick one. I don't know what this means, especially because I know what would happen in reality. After a long process, I suppose my conscious left the two boys that are most recent and I have the issues with. It seemed to present itself at me for a long time, and I was thinking about it, what does forever mean? To all of these boys, I've said the deathly L word and supposed I've meant it. I added the word FOREVER behind it, but what does that mean or emphasize? At one point in time, it meant always, and now, I question whether saying it to my boyfriend means it all in all. It's hard to explain. It'll be on my other blog, shortly.

Until then, it's great to be back.

Project lucid dreams is a go.

Permission?

2010-02-22T22:21:00.000-08:00

Alright, I don't know why I dreamt about it, but I did. I was sitting down at the table in the middle of a restaurant with Dad. Then Thien walks by, and I tell him what to order and stuff. Somehow, Dad interpreted that we were dating, and goes off on me. I went off on him, and this just gets me thinking. Should I tell my dad? Or just let it slide? If he approaches me, do I tell him the truth? What should I do? Why is this on my mind? It's not like I'll be with Thien much longer anyway ... SIGH.

There Lucy, you happy? I updated for you <3

New House, New Life, New What?

2010-02-10T11:44:00.000-08:00

Thank you Texas Mood-Swing Weather ... I was awake from 4-6 this morning because of the freezing temperature in the dorm. Since the construction around campus is jacking up our electricity, some buildings around campus no longer have a heating system, oh the joy. Anyway, two dreams as of last night ... not at all alike.

I was moving out of the dorm, out of my house, into my new apartment. Although, this wasn't the Grove, it was in Dallas. I remember it was a few stories up, the walls were blank and white. Stairs were metal ones with the backs out, so like fire-escape ones in movies. They were painted white too, the building wasn't brand new but it wasn't rusting and old. Inbetween, kind of like the dorm I'm staying at. The room I stayed in was like a suite, which I found weird. My family was helping, weird because it was Nguyen's family helping me move in. There was a moment where I told everyone to split up and run and find hiding spots. I climbed into my closet, as two guys came in searching for me. They checked everywhere BUT the closet. Even the ceiling panels, there was a hole up there, I thought of that probably because of the hole above Nathan's head this morning at Denny's. It was pretty intense, I felt like I was in the movie TAKEN. Didn't get caught, but they managed to catch my cousin Nguyen, and I wanted to beat somebody's face in ... but I woke up.

Vaguely, I remember my mom and Allen were in this dream. Pleasant in its way; I was back at home. We were living in a weird house ... the walls once again blank white and the house was a little empty. We were in the process of moving in ... and I remember when we were house hunting that I didn't want to pick the room by the parent's room. The rooms were huge, and so were the closets. I find that the room I didn't want most, was the room I was stuck with. It connected to my parent's room ... but they blocked up the door and so I was just connected through the bathroom and the garage. Don't know exactly what the point of it was, but I did move stuff around and remember Lindsey being in my dream for some odd, odd reason. It's all good.

The theme seems to lie within moving into a new place. I think I'm unconsciously thinking about my new apartment, moving out of the dorm, and all that stuff in general. Probably because I thought about whether or not my dad would kick me out of the house if I told him I no longer thought about how much Catholicism meant to me, because it doesn't. Pass it on, I enjoy not claiming myself to a religion. I love God, and that's all that matters as of right now.

I know I know!

2010-02-09T13:07:00.000-08:00

I'm very sorry ... again. College does get quite stressful, and sometimes, well a lot, I wake up late and end up rushing myself to run throughout the dorm trying to get to class on time. None of my classes have been canceled yet ... still waiting on that. Although, I have been keeping very non-detailed records of my dreams. Excuse me, I'm sorry! At least I've kept up with it, I was thinking about giving up.

02/08/10
Sleep Paralysis hit me, real hard. That's all I can say for now, it's the second time it's happened in a week. Let's see where this takes us, and if I can see why.

02/07/10
I don't remember what exactly happened in the dream, but I do remember I was living in a nice extravagant house with plenty of little kids. Guess who was the father? Tom Huynh ... WTF? I guess it's because his birthday was a few days ago.

02/06/10
I was running around in the BMB with Ashley, and we had to start running before practice. Having the dorm nearby, me and Ashley ran upstairs and just sat in the dorm eating pizza. Then we were running through the "streets" of Huntsville, it seemed a little like Mardi gras.

02.05.10
I spent the night in Houston, and I was sure I was going to be paranoid, waking up in the middle of the night and whatever. Although, this is the first night I've had a constant sleep until the morning and there was no dream.

02/04/10
We were out in the country and there was the most adorable little girl walking around outside and she ran up to me. I picked her up and she was like, "Mommy! Mommy!" Apparently, I'm the mom, which is alright because little Georgina was ADORABLE. Then I thought, what kind of name is that? Then I realized that the father was the one and only best friend of mine ... GEORGE. WHAT? That's so crazy. Then we went into the city and was walking through the hotel, I met Hannah Montana (or Miley Cyrus), Jesse McCartney, and KATE VOEGELE :D Ahhhh squeaalll <3

02/02/10 & 02/03/10
Honestly, I have no idea how these two dreams intervene with each other. I was reading the other day that dreams don't correspond to one another, we actually have at least 250 different dream scenes a night; mostly remembering the ones that come up last (of course). But these two nights were strange, the first night I was a military captain of some sort. My little knowledge of it doesn't help, but man I was a REAL B-WORD. The next night, here we go ... I was in the military AGAIN. This time, I'm the one that fell under the jerk of a captain, being smoke and drilled. Oh goodness ... kill me!

Snowday

2010-02-01T13:38:00.001-08:00

The End.
For once, I can't remember anything about my dream except that it was a snowday. I was with all my friends, the snow appeared to be clouds. We sat around and did nothing but reminisce. That's all that happened, I can't recall anything else if there was anything. Makes me think just a little, yeah, it does.

[cDo]

Gym gym gym ... old friends.

2010-01-31T17:39:00.000-08:00

The generic brand of Dayquil was in my system, so I woke up frequently during the night. Granted that, I do feel a lot better than I did before. So here we go!

In the first twenty minutes or so of my sleep, I found myself in some kind of gym. That's been a recurring theory lately, anyway, people were crowding it. I was afraid to walk around, because there were kids running in and out of the place! There was cloth hanging from ceiling panel to panel and people jumping on it like crazy. I carefully walked underneath some and managed to make it to the middle, and then out of nowhere a cloth ripped and about 5 girls fell to the ground. I ran over and made sure everyone was okay, everyone was, except for one girl. She used to be a close friend of mine, a church friend. I held her and she freaked out, and I told her it's okay, I was her friend, from church. In fact, I looked up and saw that they all were my friends from church; what happened to us? I'm not sure, I woke up. Then again falling into my slumber, we were traveling through sewer tunnels and the water was actually clean. The tunnels were giant and above ground, we found a field with two booths in them. We were in one of them, and then Annie decided to flirt with a guy from the booth across the field ... oh goodness. I ended up in a gym in Dallas, coincidence? It was with all my AVID friends, the friends I saw from elementary and stuff ... it was good to see old faces even if it was just in my dream. Apparently, I had enlisted myself into the army and I was due to leave the next day. Before I left, we decided to eat one last time at the dreaded cafeteria at Sam Houston, Belvin. Apparently as I walked downstairs there were people down there, from Berkner Band. It's our turn to host the all-state event ... so we all sat in the halls with an automatic Subway and Quizno's machine.

[cDo]

Chinese Aquarium Restaurant

2010-01-30T20:38:00.000-08:00

A nice long well deserved sleep from a long week. It was quiet and peaceful, and very long. I slept in until about, say 10 in the morning, before I pulled myself out of bed and managed to look decent to meet Ashley's family. I took a good nap later after I took aspirin, man, I love that stuff!

I was inside of Singkee, and apparently there was a lot of people inside. Kenny called me to come help in the kitchen, and I grabbed an apron, stepped through to the kitchen, and was looking for Aaron. The kitchen was huge, bigger than I could ever imagine. It was like a maze, and it kept going on. I turned a corner, remember the kitchen being giant and exuberantly white. That corner was dark, and I found Allen. I ran towards him, and he vanished. It was like the Oklahoma Bombing memorial ... but very dark. There was an aquarium, tanks and tanks of different kinds of fish just all around me. I saw Aaron, and asked him about the fish. He said that underneath Singkee was now an aquarium and I was confused. I came to the end of it, and it was like a river. Then we turned into like, Futurama characters and I was tied up by ankles and was pulled through the water, it's like water skiing (: Then I woke up to a phone call ... thanks Tran.

P.S.- My 365 is finally updated (:

[cDo]

Goodbye, World.

2010-01-29T08:35:00.000-08:00

If you've ever watched A Walk to Remember, the scene of Jamie and Landon's first date by the riverfront and they're dancing; that's the scene. Last night was pretty rough on me, and the last thing I remember doing is falling asleep wondering about my life. Vaguely do I remember the dream, all I know is that my family was all out there. It was the scene from A walk to Remember, but the basketball riverside court from One Tree Hill. We were gathered, for some kind of memorial. I couldn't figure out who's, then Thien walked over in uniform, and we talked. For once, I just didn't want anything to do with anyone, I felt like I wanted to be alone. He wasn't crying, but he was serious, seldom is he serious. He said goodbye, and that he'd always remember me. And flew off in a helicopter. With a giant, "BOOM" I ran and jumped into the hole, dirt poured over me and that was the end of it. I tried coming back up, but the dirt was falling and keeping me trapped underneath. Gasping for one last breath of air and to look at all the mourning faces, another crash filled my ears when they closed up the hole and cemented it over. Then a flash of light woke me up, there goes the only dream I held close to my crazy self, it was the stupid thunderstorm.

I think I'm trying harder and harder to analyze my dreams within my own mind and to not write them down anywhere, unless it's over a course of days. Even then, I try to remember them so ... it might work better.

[cDo]

Improvement!

2010-01-28T11:16:00.000-08:00

I talked to my suitemate Angel last night, the girl who's doing the (somewhat) project dream thing with me, and she hasn't been keeping up! TSK TSK! All I can say is that I'm sorry living in college is so hard, I haven't been up to date with most things, so therefore, I apologize for sometimes falling behind. I am very behind on my 365 too ... boo ): I'll get to that pretty soon, I promise! Being sick in college dorms don't make things any easier, just to promise you that, for now.

Last Night
Apparently now my dad and Co Van were married, where was the wedding and my playing the piano for pay? I don't know, don't really care because it was just a dream. Anyway, I was in the living room about to sleep on the couch, once again no idea why I didn't have my room available to me. Then I heard thunder and lightning flashed across the sky, having the plentiful windows and skylights at my house we saw and I got scared. So I decided I would sleep in Grandma's room, which was were Brian's room was. I'm thinking this is after his deployment to Afghanistan. We had her bed, the small couch and behind the couch was my old bed from when we were kids. At one point or another, all three of us had slept in it and claimed it ours. As soon as we cleaned up and were about to sleep, my dad called us all into the living room, Brian and Larissa were there, no clue ... but he was making us pick out what kind of padding to put under our new carpets. Why would my father choose the most strange time to do this? Because he's going through some mid-life crisis. Suddenly, I was in Hong Kong Market on Walnut and Audelia with everyone. Brian was working in the bakery/fish shop in the attachment of the market. His hair was long, but not like super long but about an inch in a fohawk, how strange. I walked past him and into the market, where I saw Lynn and Tram. The most unlikely two people to hangout, but it's okay. I hugged them and was happy to see them because it's been a while ... then I heard "Baby!" and it was Thien. I said my farewells to the girls and ran to hug him. We were talking until I saw my dad come into the market with weird looking bags. I hugged Thien and ran to the far end of the store, then realized my dad's probably looking for me. So I walked towards them, but they were gone, so I ran past every checkout aisle looking for them, and found them at the medicine area. Dad bought faded-green letterman jackets for the whole family ... and I was wearing my BHS one. WHAT?! So he said it was time to leave, and I jet off in the other direction to "buy" something. I got into the further aisle for checkout, and looked for Thien. I shouted his name and found him, he turned around and my dad started walking my way and looking for me. We dodged to the ground and I said I had to leave, kissed him, and I woke up.

[cDo]

Two Nights Ago ...
All I can remember is being in the alleyway of our old neighborhood. But this time instead of it being inside of a major road, it was to the side of what seemed like the country, facing to the highway. I remember the back (or garage) of my house faced the West, because the sun was setting and I could see it perfectly between the two houses behind mine. The neighbors weren't exactly the same, but they were there. I think Shazaib's family was now taken over by our family, Phuong's more like it. Anyway, we were playing in the garage (like we did as kids) and then Co Thao came out all stressed and whatnot yelling at Phuong to move the car. I was confused, one because Phuong could drive?! She sped, how typical, like her older sister! And parked the car perfectly then came back complaining and everything about her mom. I tried to calm her down and she just wouldn't. Then I woke up, oh boy.

Headspin in Austin!

2010-01-26T06:32:00.001-08:00

Yum, I slept really early last night. Last time I looked at the clock was about 11:30, so I woke up, say 7:15ish? I'm doing pretty well for sleep, but I know I'm getting sick. Surprisingly, I didn't toss and turn like I probably will tonight. The campus seemed to be like what the Austin trip looked like, I don't think it was the capital but it was nice to be there. Kind of fun, but we were running around and it was cloudy/rainy. I remember running in and out of fountains like a crazy person with people I haven't seen ever. But it seemed like we all made connections like the way I did with my older friends, from like the past not age wise. At least it didn't contain me becoming pregnant, for once.

[cDo]

Pregnancy Pact

2010-01-25T14:29:00.000-08:00

I honestly wanted to slap each and every one of those girls in that movie. Honestly, with the bottom of my heart, just, SMACK. Last night, I, no joke, replayed the entire movie in my head during my dream. I watched it, but the last thing I watched before my slumber at 2AM was Cellular, nothing to do with babies. Argh, something is trying to warn me, or someone. I need to look out because pregnancies in dreams could mean "A New Beginning" and considering this is our first "full" week of school, that's what it's representing.

[cDo]

Is this constant?

2010-01-24T16:40:00.000-08:00

No, I promise you it's not. It's just that things have been going on in the past few days, technically now almost a week, so I've been a bit more stressed than planned but these are very brief updates.

Saturday Night
Brian and Larissa were living in my house, Brian's room of course. Nevelly was in a crib, even though he's like, two years old now. And I was sharing a room with her father, Tommy. Our front yard looked like parking lots from hell. Oh lord.

Friday Night
I dreamt the Chris was in the army, which he is unworthy of (maybe I'm saying it because I dislike him greatly) but he was smoked. Beat up real badly, and I enjoyed myself watching him suffer. We moved into the dorm, my grandma and aunt was there with me, taking care of me somehow and then for some reason, I was marrying Nathan Meyer?

Thursday Night
Apparently Nevelly was in the hospital, and Larissa nor Brian were anywhere to be found. I signed the boy out when he was feeling better from what I think was a fever, and the hospital was Belvin? We started walking uphill towards the dorm and there goes the whole family. Then it came time for my graduation (I guess, again) and it was just strange in a dark eerie kind of place.

Wednesday Night
I believe everyone in the dorm was enlisted in the army, and we were being smoked real bad for some odd, strange reason I cannot remember.

[cDo]

Termants?

2010-01-20T12:13:00.000-08:00

The dorm wasn't it's usual, well, self? It was placed in different directions and things were moved around, we seemed to be more in the country. Reminded me of a part in UT Austin. Anyway, I was looking out the window, the sun was setting, and Olivia starts freaking out. I didn't know what was going on, but I did know I should be following up on her, so I walked over and realized she was screaming at ants. They were coming from the back of my closet, and it was really gross. I get major goosebumps when I see ants. So I moved all my clothes and the drawers in my closet to follow up on the trail of ants. The back of the closet was open to the walls, and there was a giant tower of an ant pile. But they weren't ants, more like giant termite/ants combined. I called maintenance, but they said they don't work on Sundays and won't until Wednesday (this is because it's what happened to Brian!). So I asked my R.A. and the best she could do for me was say, "Deal with it yourself?" and I bought ant spray. But they somehow knew I was going to spray them, and attacked me! Once bit, I started breaking out into hives and I begged anyone in the dorm to take me to the hospital, but nobody would. Scratching and hoping for air (I think) I woke up to my alarm and me scratching my arm intensely.

Forestridge Memories with New Friends

2010-01-19T10:37:00.000-08:00

It was a somewhat late night, my roommate fell asleep way before I did. With a lot on my mind, I finally drifted to sleep and the only thing I can remember of the dream is this. We were at FRE, apparently we were brought back to the elementary days, except everyone from the dorm was with me. We were walking around from Friendship Park up, and then Nathan Myer ran past us and apparently in the field there was some sort of Quidditch competition going on. He grabbed the little flying orb and threw it back, the coach was impressed! So he ran after Nathan, while Nathan was on the playground climbing on top of the monkey bars and completing a "legendary" challenge! I was sitting on one of the round cylinders with my old best friend, Carol Liu. Telling her about my life, and how much we've drifted but how glad I was to see her again. There was one thing left for Nathan to do, and that was spin the slide together, and with his last few ounces of strength he did! We all cheered and hollered for him! (: Until I went home and was now in Mt. Pleasant. Which was very, confusing for me. We were standing in the street, and it seemed to be like a storm was approaching. Then we were all talking, and walked into the house. I said I had to leave because I had a class the next day but nobody would let me leave, considering I was the maid of honor for the wedding? No idea who was getting married, but I left in great traffic and in the middle of a storm and realize when I arrived in Huntsville that I lived in a room with the other girls. Angel, Olivia, Cori and Jennifer. Oh boy.

[cDo]

My deepest Apologies!

2010-01-18T15:58:00.000-08:00

I realize since I returned, actually since I started, I have been slacking a LOT! I'll make it a daily thing from now on, or at least I'll try. I was thinking about it, and it'll be hard when I'm on vacation out of the States (considering in the summer I'll be halfway across the world in a place with rarely any internet) but I will keep up-to-date with it all (: Enjoy! This last dream was intense. Once again, as the dreams go further back, less details will be in the post.

January 17, 2010*
We're moving, again?! I decided to leave the house, and walk to the hospital, or something. The hospital was half a torture chamber, the other an actual hospital. I walked into a room and had someone sit me down to ask me a few questions. "How long have you been together? When was your first time?" I told her, and she congratulated me on just about everything. Then I was put into a wheelchair, rolled into a scanning room and realized that I was sitting next to Thien when the doctor announced that we were having a boy. I was so glad. My mom was in the room with me back at my apartment, didn't see Thien anywhere but my aunts were there. Alijah was a fat little boy, and they were playing with him when I realized (as I looked down) that I was pregnant again. Then we were in the mall parking lot, Nhan Tran was pulling the car around, he was apparently the father of my second child, Nick. Although for some reason Nick was in a package seal ... like my baby syringes? We were going through the mall with my family, and I remember Bac Dao wanting to take a picture with some lady. The last scene I remember before I woke up was my mom and me on the beach with Alijah and Nick running around. She held my hand and said your boys are adorable, I miss you. She said goodbye and I woke up.

January 16, 2010
It started with me running through "Berkner" but it was on Liberty's campus. Apparently, they have hall monitors now and some kid wouldn't let me through to the band hall even though I was alumni. Troyka walked out and said, "I'm sorry, that's how things are now." Peeved, I walked towards the cafeteria and Chris was there, I know he was pissing me off so I took his head and rammed it into a wall before I walked out the school doors and into Tram's house. I was playing with Binh An for a little bit, she had six fingers on both hands, which was something I apparently had never noticed before. Tram let me into her room, and it was a hanging array of cages with animals in them! Hamsters, and a chinchilla! Behind the hanging cages was a small box for this adorable little toy dog, apparently a present for Kim. I remember asking if it barked, obviously she would know, but it didn't and Kim walked in. I straightened myself out and said I had to leave. It was like walking on top of the pyramids, Bac Dao's house was where we were going for a party on Christmas Eve. I ran past the house to see over the hill, apparently it was Saint Joseph's church, then Omair came out of nowhere and was like, "Did you forget where the house was?" I was freaking out, because Thien came up behind him. Happy as heck! I ran to hug him, then I closed my eyes, opened them, and ended up literally in some ice cream parlor. My phone rang and dad said Thien was at the house waiting for me ... confused I paid for my ice cream and started walking home. When I got home, he was sleeping in my bed, I was freaking out because he wasn't supposed to blow our cover (it was at my old house). Then I fell under the blankets, got out and he was gone. Then I realized nobody was home, then I jet out to Thien's house and realized our parents were in the back of his house eating Christmas dinner.

January 15, 2010
It was Susan, Claudia, and Maurice inside of the library and it turned into a wing place. We were sitting and eating, conversing, until I got a call on the phone from Dad! I drove home, to a really nice house, two story glamorous. I walked in and Dad was ranting and complaining about nonsense, oh the joy.

January 14, 2010
Honestly, I can't read my dream details because they make no sense. But I do remember being in my old house in Dallas and it was in a more run down area (more Ghetto) than I could remember. Although, I did meet Eminem ... it was intense.

January 13, 2010
I was waiting at the school for Tiffany and Thien, for some reason I dropped off Tiffany at some place in Rowlett, very confusing. I stayed a bit, and realized it was Lucy's place. That was super confusing, but I saw Isamu come into the house and I walked out to get a blanket from the car. I was walking back wrapped in the blanket and about four or five guys came out of nowhere and well, I'm very sure it's self-explanatory.

A Little Behind (:

2010-01-13T11:21:00.000-08:00

I shall apologize, things in the past week have been quite hectic, all with the hanging out before I leave and preparing to leave and actually leaving for Huntsville. Now that I'm settled in and with the hang of school; I can update this and my Flickr. I'll start with the most recent one down to last week.

January 12, 2010
Everything seemed to go backwards, like I was in college then before I knew it, I was re-admitted into high school. Maybe I was partially awake for some odd reason. Anyway, I was in Berkner, but it wsn't Berkner. More like, the backway into Springridge's playground but at the same time, it wasn't. Anyway, I was sitting inside with Dustin I believe. Then came in a swarm of friends who apparently I knew from "Church," but none of the following go there! Nalene, Thien, and Island walked in and I was super excited to see Thien. We all talked and the bell rang, they went to class and I went to mine. Apparently, I got my diploma and walked out to this dark, grey-sky area of Berkner. Believed to be the "East Side" of the school. I walked back into the building, only this time I walked into C.E. King and found Tran, Samantha, and Lisandro before I saw Katherine. I was confused, decided to stay and chat until the bell rang. I walked to the East side again, this time it was dark and ready to be night-time. I jumped off the railing and to my car, where James Clark was sitting. Horrified, I was just driving and he started telling me things like he loved me and whatever. I pulled over to the side of the road and told him to get out of the car. He wouldn't so I sped off and his door (luckily open) he rolled out and started running super fast behind me. I was entering a brush of trees and was scared because the road curved, a lot. Finally after I felt like I lost him I drove into the middle of a 4 part playing field of little league kids. I stopped and before I knew it was helping these adorable boys, and someone offered me a job. I gladly accepted the application and drove back to my house. It was in the form of my old house, and we had the computer in my parents' room. My dad was in the kitchen with my mom, Brian in his room and Allen at the computer. Watching, my dad started checking doors/windows to be locked and I asked Allen if Thien left. He said no and I saw Thien on the ground asleep. So I grabbed him (as best I could) and tried to move him into Allen's closet before my dad saw him. That wasn't successful because Dad saw me, but I got a call and was told to come to an interview ASAP. So I strapped up, and jumped in the car. When I walked into the interviewing room, the two people interviewing me were Mr. Troyka, and Mr. Valez and the person I was going against for the job, was Kye Austin.

NOTE: The next few dreams aren't detailed so ... bear with me please.

January 11, 2010
My mom and I were walking around what seemed to be the streets of Japan, in the fish markets early morning. Instead of it being open and under blankets to shield from the sun, it felt like more of a medival/stone age kind of building structure. That and when I turned the corner, Jaron Gin was in a tux, cute as a doll, and he grabbed me. Spun me around and kissed me on the cheek. We talked a little before my mom told me to go with her, then that's all I can remember.

January 10, 2010
Honestly, it looked like the corner store in Italy we stopped at from Paris and then it turned into a Home Depot before I left. Tiffany's mom was with me, trying to buy cell phones. I realized it was weird, but our cell phones turned into Taco Shells ...

January 09, 2010
I was in Vietnam, Saigon at my mom's place but my dad's family was there. We were talking, me and the aunt-in-law (technically) about pregnancies. Why do I keep thinking of pregnancies? Apparently Lucy had a dream about being pregnant too.

January 08, 2010
I was in the hospital not knowing what was going on. Before I knew it, I was being wheel-chaired out into my home and everybody and their dog was there. We were all huddled around each other, me in the middle, and apparently I was passing around twins. Imagine that, twins in my family? A boy, and a girl, exactly what I want. Although, these babies, weren't really babies. They were those little eye dropper things with little blue and pink hats and blankets around them, and I was confused as everybody "Ooh-ed" and "Ahh-ed" at them. What, just, happened? With a very confused look on my face, I felt a hand on my shoulder and a voice, a very familiar voice, say "Our kids are beautiful." I looked up to see who it was, hoping it wasn't who I thought it was, and it was him. My babies' father was in fact, Danny Nguyen.

Weird, the dreams have the theme of "Pregnancy" and either my mom or brother in them. Finally caught up, I'll keep a better record of my dreams up (:

[cDo]

High Temperature, 28F!

2010-01-07T08:10:00.000-08:00

Wow, it's already Thursday. I thought I was ready to leave, but now that I think about it, I don't want to. I'm super ready for school, since the Holidays have been a blessing to me. I want to learn, be in classes, but I don't want to be stuck in the dorm. Don't get me wrong, I love my roommate and suitemates, but something about not being as comfortable when I'm showering (LOL Ashley ... Angel, you know what I mean) or just having everything ready to go for me makes me bummed. At least I know I'm working towards my future, and in the near future I see an apartment with Annie and Addie. Seriously, I was exhausted this morning, Thien kept me up on the phone until about 2AM and then I didn't hear my alarm this morning. He scared me knocking on the window, where it's the "JUMP OUT OF BED" wake up. I wished that RISD would cancel school, then again I don't because the kids would have to make it up sooner or later (Spring break probably, suckage). I wanted to crawl back into my warm, cozy, and soft bed (that Brian is trying to steal when I leave) and just slumber the day away. Sucks that I had to pick up my LOR at Berkner and be stuck at Richland for like, ever. Hopefully Michael wakes up and he'll take me around, because we have no lives. I get to see Denise today, should think about seeing the Stephens' before I leave.

I can't remember my dream, all I remember is being in the Library at Sam Houston and telling Susan, Danny, Stephanie, and Maurice about the "High temperature of the day is 28" and just ... that. I think I remembered more about it, something having to do with Vickie and us in some sort of medival housing. But I think I had a dead sleep because I was so tired. I haven't been keeping up with things lately, that might be it. My mind is jumbled, so are my dreams. I'm leaving in four days and I've yet to even start thinking about packing.

[cDo]

Shotgun!

2010-01-06T10:29:00.000-08:00

Last night was not a "Sleep Well" night. My computer "crashed" and I was scared something was wrong, for now, it's working completely fine. Arg, and something that bothers me is these late night cravings! I don't know why, but since college started they've started to become worse! I didn't want to eat considering it was nearly 1 AM and well, wasn't ready to stay up for another hour for "proper" digestion. Who cares though, I'm not trying to impress anyone. Especially since my room now officially smells like Thien.

I have no idea where we were, but it looked a lot like we were in something that seemed like the Coliseum in Italy. Gorgeous buildings, broken(like) walls, but here we go. We had classrooms and it was right on the beach; there was a hurricane approaching. The sky was black, and everyone was scared. We lived up the street so we went home to see how bad the ocean was from a higher view, it was really rough. So on our way down to the school to try and warn everybody, the sun came out. And when I say "we," I'm referring to David, and in the dream, he was my boyfriend. Anyway, when the sun came out water came rushing down through every street and it kind of felt like we were swarmed to death. Not being able to fight it, I grabbed onto David and let the water push us wherever, knowing that he's 10x a better swimmer than I am, even though I'm the one with a pool (: It took us down to where the "school" was and then the AVID tutors were there. Some giant commotion was going on and I tried to listen through a window but couldn't. David walekd over and asked me what was happening, but I didn't know. The tutors came out and some were crying, why? I have no idea.

Next thing I knew, Huntsville was now a part of my house. I had issues with Chris, of course, and one thing led to another. I wanted to just shoot him, but then I walked out into the other room when I saw some person with a mask go into my room. It was like, watching Michael Myers murdering people. Honestly, sick as the thought might be, I think I was more pissed that Chris was killed in my room, which meant clean-up. Then I was put up against my biggest fear, Michael Myers himself. Thanked him as a grabbed a shotgun and hit him. No idea why I didn't shoot ... anyway I woke up thanks to text messages. Then I greatly had Thien come over and we got to hang for a while. I felt something wet at the top of my bed, I looked and Thien was apparently on anti-biotics. He had some sort of contraption taped onto his mouth and I was honestly confused. I heard voices outside, and looked out my window. I forgot my brother was moving in ... then I woke up. Weirdest dream ever.

[cDo]

A Possible Sign?

2010-01-05T21:20:00.000-08:00

Do you believe in the afterlife? What happens to us after death? Do we really have souls? If we do, are we allowed to stay upon Earth, or are we forced to stay up in Heaven. The dreams that we have, are they real? When we dream about those we have lost in the world, is it their souls returning to comfort us, or is it just repressed memories coming out. But our dreams aren't exactly "memories," or are they? Dreams develop depending on what information has been gathered up in your mind during the day, sometimes the week. If you think about it, they're not really random. Last night I was lying in bed, and couldn't sleep. I pulled out sheets of notebook paper and a pen, and delicately wrote a letter. Did I mention I haven't done much writing during break? Mostly typing ... which means my handwriting, oh lord! Anyway, I wrote a letter to Allen. Telling him how much I missed him, and how sometimes I would forget that he wasn't with us anymore, even though it's been over 2 years now. I told him about Thien, and wondered if he does see me and watch over me. For now, I believe that he and my mom do. I asked him to do so, just as a reassurance kind of thing, and then I fell asleep. My slumber was great, I didn't wake up once during the night.

I dreamt that I was a little girl again, back in Vietnam. Running in and out of our fields in the country with my brothers and cousins, pretty soon we got lost. Allen and I ran pretty far, down by the lake that Dad told us he learned how to swim in. It was just the two of us, and now we were grown back to our normal age (I guess). He looked great, I missed hearing his voice. I wasn't able to control anything this time around, nothing at all. Maybe it was my conscious talking to him. Although our conversation cannot be recalled, I do remember seeing the giant ant-piles and flowers or plants that would close as we touched them. We walked down the trail that we did when we were kids, and then there were chicks. Baby chickens clucking around, adorable. I think that came into my dreams because I read what Vickie wrote to me in my Sweet 16 Journal. I'm hoping it's a sign from Allen that he's okay with whatever I'm doing in my life, continuing to progress on. I did mention how nervous I was about this upcoming semester, but I'm pretty much ready.

[cDo]

Startled.

2010-01-04T08:47:00.000-08:00

I went to bed pretty early last night, about 10PM. Might have to be because I stayed up the night before and had about 4 hours of sleep or so, but as we go on, I was startled twice last night. Once, at 1:40 AM because Rita called and we talked for about, I want to say 3 hours. Didn't sleep until about 4 and then I was having a strange dream, but I wanted to know what happened but somebody was knocking on my window. It's weird. Hearing how loud and clear a simple knock could be, that must be the disadvantage of having my head towards the window right next to the threat of someone bashing the window in or shooting through it considering it's where the room at the old house was shot at. Thien came over at 7 in the morning to see me before he went to school, tell me, there hasn't been a day since we started talking that I haven't seen him.

I can't remember the dream very well, but I remember we were about to go to a concert of some sort. We had all of the kids (at Tram's) showering and waiting oh so long for the twins to finish up. Then I went into the bath to check up on them, and it was clear, so I walked into the living room and lured in Rico (from Hannah Montana, I think his name is Moises Aries) and headlocked him. Can't remember why but I did, and dragged him back into the room for Tram. She fussed a bit and then we were seriously about to leave until I got a phone call from my agent (didn't know I even had one) telling me that there was a career fair the next day. I walked into what is now Kim's room and searched up the computer. Lights went out, and the computer stayed on, Timmy came in and apparently now, I was a secret agent. An explosion happened and as I turned around to look out the window, the knock came on mine.

This kind of reminds me of a scary dream I had back when lord knows when about Scream chasing me around and me barging into Tram's house where everything was in slow motion, it's just one of those dreams.

[cDo]

Magically Pregnant!

2010-01-03T09:32:00.000-08:00

So I'm currently awaiting phone calls from two different people to see what my responsibilities are. One is older, the other younger. We were supposed to have lunch at noon, but certain circumstances didn't workout as well as we planned (Melinda has a crazy mother) and people like waking up late (Suong slept in). I'm kind of just here, my dad's in the living room messing with the sound system ... my dad's playing circus music and I'm horrified of turning to look out the window and seeing a clown. Spent my night at Thien's and we were talking about pregnant people we knew, guess that's how my dream came out to be.

Waking up various times because of my very annoying and uncontrollable alarm from the SideKick (thank the Jesus Lord my iPhone is finally fixed, getting it soon) I had several dreams. This one, being my last, most confusing one, got me thinking. We were in my old house, but it was bigger, once again like some sort of mansion. Everybody was there, even Phuong's Family and the Bui's too. I miss my cousins, haven't seen them in a while. Now, Phuong's family already has 3 girls, and their mom was about to have another child. Which is weird, because my "Step-Mom" was in labor too. They went to the hospital together and as we waited in the "waiting room" which modeled the playroom of my old house we talked. They wheeled out my aunt first (very unlikely to happen if you JUST had a baby) and she was holding a baby boy. Nguyen (the first daughter of theirs) asked if Matthew was in there. I was like, "Who is Matthew?" I looked and saw this adorable little Asian kid running around, I guess she meant it as a joke because well, I highly doubt he's allowed in such a room. Who was Matt? That, was my little brother and here came out my step-mother and dad holding my new baby sister. Then everything started to shake and I heard this loud siren, felt a smack of a pillow and realized it was that stupid alarm again. Thien decided to continue throwing pillows at me until I turned the stupid phone off. What a very strange night.

[cDo]

First Night of the New Year

2010-01-02T09:21:00.000-08:00

I slept pretty early, say about half an hour before midnight? Woke up plenty of times because my brother brought the Quija Board back into the house, by the way, he moved back in. I was super paranoid and guessing that's the reason of my rough night.

January 1, 2010
I'm in a new house of some sort, it's a giant mansion. It's my aunt & uncle's new house in California, and we were all there. The back porch was lined with the cutest pebbles and a walkway right down to the beach. We (as in Krys my cousin, and I) were sitting in the back watching the waves, and somehow the BBQ Pit was sitting right by the water, so we ran out there and her along with little Bryan jumped into the water and it was cold so they ran back inside. I remembered back to not packing enough clothes so I didn't go in, but I messed with a crab :P Then we went into the house and Uncle Tony said something about going to Sea World ... confused? Then I woke up, I think it was about 2:30 and I was freezing cold. So I grabbed another blanket and went back to sleep before the 3:00 mark hit, and started dreaming again. Now I was walking on the highway, I can't remember why, but I was. Everybody was, maybe it was to the state fair and cars were just gone. I met up with Trinh Ngo,and Tiffany, and we saw Grace with some other chick and apparently everybody had "beef" with each other but ended up standing right by each other anyway. Then I got a phone call, and had to jet out of there. I jumped over the side of the railing of the highway and fell down into my old house. My brother, Allen, was there along with Brian and we were all talking and dancing. I miss him so much, but then I woke up, this time, it was 5:30. Halfway asleep, I checked my phone for three messages from this idiot I don't like talking to, and fell back into my final slumber. This was a weird dream, I was paired up along with everyone and we had to draw slips of paper. Everyone was becoming a slave and in the end, they would die. My turn was up, and the crazy Nazi looked at me like I was deserving to die, I pulled it out and he looked at it, "You're the lucky one." I was now his slave, and it sucked. He treated me and his other slave very well, except he was sleeping with her. I was pregnant, not his of course, and he was just weird. One night he left me in the garage of my old house and I was working on bikes. Motocross bikes with my family, and we had a course to ride on ... what?

Photo will be up later :P

[cDo]

A little Behind

2010-01-01T21:05:00.000-08:00

From December 30, 2009
I've racked my brain insanely and all I can ever recall of that dream is seeing the stars background from the Transiberian concert.

I did my laundry ... and my bra's little backing melted. How? I'm not sure, a bra gone to waste ):

December 31, 2009
Last night of 2009, the year I was on top. Although these might not be in complete order. It was dark out, the stars were there (again?) and I was out shopping for my new apartment. While shopping, I get a phone call in the fridge section and I'm told to take my cousins, Krys and Bryan out to school. So I take them into this weird looking building and it's all basically gym courts, so I leave them there and walk back to the store. It's now looking like an IKEA and turns into a Target. I get another phone call, and my heart drops. I have to find Marissa, a good friend of mine, my little sister, and break the news about her sister. I walked up to her and grabbed her, and her being happy and chippy, was bouncing around in the candy section. I told her, as easily as I could and she just dropped. It broke my heart. Then I walked her out of the store where men grabbed me and threw me in the back of a truck. Like those giant 18-wheelers and apparently I was now preparing to go into battle.

The cousins, I called them (California) to wish a happy new year, and as far as the apartment goes I was thinking I needed to finish out my applications. Marissa, I'm not sure how, but I thought about her earlier in this week, about how I wasn't here last year to help her get through her sister's death, I know I need to see her soon. I'm not sure about the whole ARMY situation though, I was probably thinking about joining the Air Force as I have been before.

I wanted to use my "Human Tetris" but this will do. I love my brother, and he's moving in. Us expressing our emotions are rare, especially for him. :]

Happy 2010 Everybody!
[cDo]

Tearjerkers!

2009-12-30T11:56:00.000-08:00

Honestly, last night I don't think I dreamed. Of nothing in particular, except I had those moments where when I woke up, I fell back asleep. But I would dream(ish) that I was up and about doing something, like I woke up to my text going off and after I shut it off I guess I imagined myself getting out of bed and getting ready for the day when in reality, I was lying in bed. Thien slept over last night too, it was interesting. A Walk to Remember, tears, oh, I love that movie (: That's it for now, I'll post up my picture later tonight!

TSO was completely amazing!

[cdo]

Missing?

2009-12-29T10:56:00.000-08:00

December 28, 2009

So a confession to make, I really need to get back on a good sleep schedule. Although, I'm not moving back to Huntsville for another, say about three weeks. How depressing, I miss everyone dearly. Big props to Angel for doing this with me (: Maybe we're just super nerds! Currently, I'm at Thien's house, he totally took my car to do his Marines business, better be back soon because I need to get home to meet up with Tina. Anyway, last night was a mess. Issues with the brother and his girlfriend so I was at their apartment until about 3, then came to Thien's because if I went home, would've been caught. Dad had no idea I was out all night anyway, gotta be careful with all of that. My dream(s) were weird, and confusing.

I walked up the stairs to find that we were all in a room, kind of like the way my house in Vietnam is built up. I went into the bedroom and I think we lost someone, can't remember who. I was horrified, because it was dark and you know, I'm still afraid of the dark. I went to sit on the bed and was just thinking, then someone else came in saying that Marianna was missing. It was what I figured portrayed as Nevelly's biological father. I had no idea who this girl was, and then apparently my grandmother went missing. I stared out the window looking over what really was my Vietnam scene, and turned in. They were lost and looking for this teenager, and I went into his room. There were two closets, I was so afraid to open it and find him hanging. I walked out and Marianna came in running, and then there was grandma, and Brian walked in. He said he found them in the store, no idea how, but he did. Last thing I can recall is driving in the car in a place called Frisco Square with all the lights up, and in the passenger seat was John; and apparently we were dating. How horrifying! ;] There's not a 365 picture yet, I haven't done much today, planning on seeing Tina (:

I learned a new song. I remembered listening to this when I was younger, 3rd grade. Jim Brickman, you are a genius.

[cDo]

Night Number Three

2009-12-28T14:45:00.000-08:00

Well, honestly I can say that I am already falling behind on posts and whatnot. I've been out, a lot with my friends, spending the night and whatever. Whatever, I suppose. Anyway, this is a two part blog (: I need to catch up and stop slacking!

December 26, 2009
It was in the parking lot of the Wal-Mart by our Neighborhood and it was once again, all of the band kids. We were inside the store and it looked like the cabins from when we went to Leadership Band Camp. I walked into the "Cafeteria" area and saw Diane talking to Katie, for some reason, she had been expelled. Poor Katie, so I was very lost and all the marching band ran out into the parking lot and started marching our show. I was very confused. It was for Robert Tucker, I think. We marched in his memory, I'm thinking it was our show from last year. Then I drove home and realized I was in a new house, avoiding someone buying our house.

We went to eat Ice Cream today, who knew the cups would have inspiring messages on them?

December 27, 2009
Well, here goes nothing. I didn't sleep, well barely. I slept at Tram's at 5AM because we were up doing some stupid puzzle that I still hate :] For the hour or so I did rest, I dreamt that my alarm kept going off and I couldn't turn it off and that Saloni (lying next to me, of course) picked up Tram's sword and hit me over the head. WHAT? :D

I took a chance and dropped my camera in the freezing pool water. This picture came out perfectly with a flash, did I ever mention, I love my waterproof camera?

[cDo]

Christmas Night

2009-12-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

Of course, I would be one to completely miss a day because I was just too exhausted. So, Christmas night I was planning on going out, but I really didn't considering I dropped my phone outside in a pile of snow, facedown, might I add. I tracked myself inside the house, plopped on my bed, and knocked out. Thien oh-so-annoyingly called me at 2:30 to tell me that "A Walk to Remember" is on, but knowing I know that movie inside-out, and that I was tired, I brushed it off and didn't wake up until 14:30 the next day.

It was an awfully weird dream, extremely strange. We were all in the condo's we had when we were in Colorado for my freshman year. Then we stepped outside, and it was a lake, confused, I walked back in and it turned into some school. I think it was supposed to be "Sam Houston" but the dorms were crazy. I remember cleaning our bedroom, me and Olivia, but the room was much prettier than the one we have right now. Olivia and me left the bathroom open, so we would go in through Ashley & Angel's room. It was 12 I think, and I walked through the dorm (which was connected to the school buildings and stuff, that would be nice); I walked to the center of the school. I think it was like, this school's version of the LSC and I think I was just there, didn't need to buy anything. The sirens went off and everybody ducked. There was a killer stalker on the loose, I remember looking at my watch and thinking "Oh my god, it's almost 2, my psychology exam!" Then everybody starting running and I was scared because I had no idea how I found my way to the LSC, then my phone rang and James Luna offered me a ride back to the dorm area. We hopped in the truck and started driving, but there was construction, and that creepy stalker dude had slashed our tires and was like, right behind us. We jumped out of the truck, now Tim was there, and we ran through the construction. James and Tim ran ahead and knowing my clumsy self, I stepped on something sharp and fell over. James ran back for me and dragged me back. We never went to the psychology test, it was a free "100" for everybody. Knowing that we gave our keys back to Clair, I think we broke into the room, Olivia was leaving and I stepped out of the room. Then I was somehow back in the Colorado condo's, once again confused, I stepped outside the building and we were on lakes. We were taking small boats to the Marching State Band Competition, it was completely confusing.

Waking up at 2PM, I had 17 missed calls from Tiffany, 4 from David, and 13 text messages awaiting responses.

[cDo]

Night of Christmas Eve

2009-12-25T21:59:00.000-08:00

I spent the night at Thien's, and I honestly don't remember my dreams very well. I kept waking up at night because the fan was really, really, annoying. What I can remember, one of the more detailed dreams is that I came home and a bunch of people were in the house. I saw one of my dad's ex-girlfriends there, she had a beard? Her kids were there too, and so was my best friend Tran. It's amazing, the couches were re-arranged in a weird kind of way, I suppose. I then woke up, and the only other thing I can remember about my dream was Thien asking me very personal questions.

Everything in the dream does resemble what happened earlier in that day, I was on the phone with Tran talking about how much I missed her cousins, and that she was going to see them (along with their mom) on Christmas Day. The beard though, I can relate to me telling Thien how much I hated his, why it was on her, I'm not very sure. I think the re-arrangement of the room had to do with me re-doing my room.

Christmas Day:
I remember waking up a lot, and still being at Thien's place. After I left, I came home, showered, and was told by some random lady in her house to not wear shorts. I left to Nalene's after fixing my speakers and Skype-ing with Angel (suitemate). I totally went over to Nalene's and played with her little sisters, up until Danny came home. I then left to return to my house when I noticed my stupid "Empty" on the gas was on, then I tried to fill it up at two separate places. Both places gave me trouble, but I didn't want to have to push my car in the cold. So I had the most annoying conversation with the lady at Shell, then I'm off to pickup Tiffany, and home to the party. Got to catch up with the Lousiana kids (: It was a great pleasure seeing them again, dropped off my cousins, grandma, and Tiffany before I came home to look for my phone. It wasn't in the car, or in my house. I began to freak out, so I walked outside to my car while calling it, and found it face-down in the snow, luckily it wasn't on silent.

Hoping everybody had a very Merry Christmas Day!
[cDo]